gothicdragon 7.7

The smell of loneliness

Tracy — Thu, 14 Aug 2008 16:32:17 +0000

Someone asked me, “what does loneliness smell like?”

“It smells like rain on a cold wet day,” I replied.

~adieu

Huit huit huit

Tracy — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 12:00:52 +0000

So today is one of those ‘mystical’ days where the numbers are all the same…. At least in the western world that uses the standard Christian calendar. I personally start counting the years from the creation point 4,789,154,652 years ago. So today is really 3-12-53 and it’s Saturday.

Today also marks the begining of the olymipics in china. This will be something I’ll be missing as I don’t have tv and I’m virtually apathetic towards the whole olympic thing to begin with. Or perhaps it’s the whole national pride put into athletic competition that offends me. I think of myself as a global citizen and I dislike cutting up the world and putting up barriers based upon ancient tribal alliances that matter so very little in the year 4,789,154,653.

But then man is so slow to evolve.

~adieu

If it really is the eighth month, why don’t we call it October?

En espanol

Tracy — Thu, 07 Aug 2008 11:45:18 +0000

Last night I was helping my friend stephanie with american airlines website. She lives in the Dominican and is making a trip out here to the Miami area to visit everyone. She was having problems with some promotional code for better rates. The code they gave her was not working. So she calls me up to help her.

Now English is my primary language. Well let’s say it’s my only language. Though I love languages, I have trouble learning them and retaining them. My mind is filled with fragments of German, French, Spanish, Italian, and even smaller pieces of Arabic.

The website she directed me to was completely in Spanish. I read everything on the page outloud and with my best Spanish accent. Unfortunately most Spanish I learned was from Californian Mexicanos….or would that be Mexicanos Californian…?well anyway, I’m doing the best I can. The more I read, the easier it was to pronounce the words more accurately.

Unfortunately we couldn’t figure out why the code didn’t work but on the plus side, I think this experience has taught me an easier way of learning a new language.

~adieu

What is love? Baby don’t hurt me. Don’t hurt me no more.

Tracy — Wed, 06 Aug 2008 11:48:48 +0000

It’s difficult to comprehend how love works. The best way that I can describe it in a technical way is a person is much like a glacier, standing proud and virtually immobile. It sits there cold and impassive to everything. Sometimes an outside source will warm the glacier enough for some of it to melt. This in turn forms small rivers that have the power to cut through mountains.

This is what love is. The glacier melting. The measure of love is by the degree of the melt. Love can range from small trickles to vast rivers that would make the amazon seem like a mere stream.

~adieu

Things i learned from my fortune cookie today

Tracy — Wed, 06 Aug 2008 00:13:43 +0000

A huge fortune at home is not as good as money in use.

And if you have neither, you are screwed.

….

Guess I’m screwed.

~adieu

New look

Tracy — Tue, 05 Aug 2008 12:14:05 +0000

I went through and found a template I liked. Still thinking about it though. It reflects a more positive feel that I think best represents me and how I am now.

Previous versions of this site were rather dark. My tastes have changed over the years since 1999 when I started gothicdragon. I know the name really doesn’t reflect me anymore, but I’ll keep it for now.

~adieu

monday monday

Tracy — Mon, 04 Aug 2008 11:52:42 +0000

it’s interesting that some Mondays are better than others. most seem to dread the onset of yet another Monday. some seem quite the opposite, much to the chagrin and animosity of the first group mentioned. I’ve come to realize that it’s not the day itself that has the inherent social problem. it’s the people themselves. more importantly it’s their attitude towards the day.

this morning I woke up a bit late for me, but I woke none the less with a happy face and a bright cheery disposition. I greeted everyone with a smile and sparkle in my eye. in return I was welcomed with the same attitude.

happiness is a state of mind, much like the new yorkness (small Billy Joel pun please forgive). happiness is also contagious. if you smile and approach things with a positive attitude it does project onto others and in some if not most cases it can change their perspective. as the old saying goes, you get what you give.

just a little happy Monday advice.

also an iced venti upsidedown caramel macchiato does help too.

~adieu

brand new life

Tracy — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 11:37:02 +0000

the challenges of a new job can be very exciting. I started my new job on Monday and the week has been just flying by. my new co-workers seem to nice if not a bit ‘off’. on the plus side, I get to wear jeans and sneakers. after a year of wearing suits and dress shoes to roll around on the dirty dusty floor fixing computers that should just be tossed, it is very refreshing and to a greater extent very relaxing.
I do miss all my friends from my last job. i developed quite a number of them. seeing them every day made the madness and cruelty of the management nearly bearable.
the only thing I can think of besides meeting some interesting and wonderful people at my last company that was good about it was that I learned about being more creative. being surrounded by florals and beautiful d?cor tends to leave an impression upon you.
lately I’ve been in the mood to write more. I used to be quite prolific. granted I have never been able to finish a story. my brain works faster that my fingers can type and my hand to type. I also noticed recently that since the invention of predictive testing, google adding spell checking on searches, and browsers now with auto spell check built into them I’ve become the most horrible speller. it used to be that these spell checkers were little more than word scanners that suggested words to you that never were what you were trying to spell in the first place. now they seem to be hyper accurate auto-correcting programs. as I’m thinking of it, texting isn’t helping either with it’s limited character capabilities makes us all use short cuts.

sade - “jezebel”

Tracy — Wed, 30 Jul 2008 23:35:05 +0000

Jezebel wasn’t born with a silver spoon in her mouth
She probably had less than every one of us
But when she knew how to walk she knew
How to bring the house down
Can’t blame her for her beauty
She wins with her hands down
Jezebel, what a belle
Looks like a princess in her new dress
How did you get that
Do you really want to know, she said
It would seem she’s on her way
It’s more, more than just a dream
She put on her stockings and shoes
Had nothing to lose - she said it was worth it

Reach for the top
And the sun is gonna shine
Every winter was a war she said
I want to get what’s mine

Jezebel Jezebel
Won’t try to deny where she came from
You can see it in her pride
And the raven in her eyes
Try show her a better way
She’ll say you don’t know what you’ve been missing
And by the time she blinks you know she won’t be listening

Reach for the top she said
And the sun is gonna shine
Every winter was a war she said
I want to get what’s mine

doctor who?

Tracy — Tue, 22 Jul 2008 01:19:30 +0000

i would just like to thank mel for informing me of a new place to satisfy my doctor who and other british tv programming addictions. surfthechannel.com is brilliant!

~adieu